as the seagull flew by the window...

As i sit here, listening to songs on youtube, sitting by the window, a seagull flew by... and hinder singing, Better Than Me on the background...

I'm in Denmark, home to Lars parents... officially my in laws, now that i am a wife. It seems strange to be saying it, a single woman for the past 35 years and now a wife to someone.

Saying goodbye was never easy for me, hate goodbyes, still do, and saying goodbye to your family you live with, a mother you sleep with, a sister you nag at and argue with, and kids you keep screaming and kissing all at the same time, and not forgetting 2 brothers you always wonder about their common sense.... all these came in flashes when u sit thousand of miles away, while the world go on by, and only then you realise, this is it, you're on your own now missy!

The faces you wish you see one more time, the last hug, the last kisses... and the last step out of home.

Nickelback - Photograph

Look at this photograph

Every time I do it makes me laugh

How did our eyes get so red?

And what the hell is on Joey's head?

This is where I grew up

I think the present owner fixed it up

I never knew we ever went without

The second floor is hard for sneaking out

This is where I went to school

Most of the time had better things to do

Criminal record says I broke in twice

I must've done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it's too late

Should I go back and try to graduate

Life's better now than it was back then

If I was them I would of let me in

Oh oh ohOh god I, I

Every memory of looking out the back door

I have a photo album spread out on my bedroom floor

It's hard to say,It's time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door

I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for

It's hard to say,It's time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

Remember the old arcade

Blew every dollar that we ever made

The cops hated us hangin' out

They say somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio

And sing along with every song we know

We said someday we'd find out how it feels

To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed

I was so nervous that I nearly missed

She's had a couple of kids since then

I haven't seen her since God knows when

Oh oh ohOh god I, I

Every memory of looking out the back door

I have a photo album spread out on my bedroom floor

It's hard to say, It's time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door

I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for

It's hard to say, It's time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

I miss that town

I miss their faces

You can't erase

You can't replace it

I miss it now

I can't believe it

So hard to stay

Too hard to leave it

If I could relive those days

I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door

I have a photo album spread out on my bedroom floor

It's hard to say,It's time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door

I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for

It's hard to say, It's time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

Look at this photograph

Every time I do it makes me laugh

Every time I do it makes me...

Taking A Break...

I am officially taking a break from blogging for a couple of months...

Due to packing and moving to another home and wedding preparations, i will be lucky if i have time stare into space...

But, to all friends, you know where to find me, no, not Timbre or Holland Village, am too busy, ok, wait, who am i kidding,..hahhaha, ok, email me or call me if someone is in need, and ONLY if there are drinks.. will i come in a flash.

Seriously

Eid Mubarak to all...

Have a Blessed and Enjoyable Day With Your Love Ones!

From,

Idah and Lars

Make A Memory...

Thanks to my sis, i'm all addicted to this song.. plus many others from her, and she's the stay-home mum!! something is not right here... :D

Video clip here

Bon Jovi - You Want Make A Memory

Hello again, it's you and me

Kinda always like it used to be
Sippin' wine, killing time
Trying to solve life's mysteries
How's your life, it's been a while
God it's good to see you smile



I see you reaching for your keys
Looking for a reason not to leave
If you don't know if you should stay
If you don't say what's on your mind

Baby just breathe
There's nowhere else tonight we should be


You wanna make a memory?
I dug up this old photograph
Look at all that hair we had.
It's bittersweet to hear you laugh
Your phone is ringing I don't wanna ask


(You Want To) Make a Memory
If you go now, I'll understand
If you stay, hey, I've got a plan


We're gonna make a memory
You wanna steal a piece of time
You can sing the melody to me
And I can write a couple of lines

You wanna make a memory?

If you don't know if you should stay
And you don't say what's on your mind
Baby just breathe
There's nowhere else tonight we should be
We Should be


You wanna make a memory
You wanna steal a piece of time
You can sing the melody to me
And I can write a couple of lines
You wanna make a memory?

Tag

Ms Envy, since you have tagged me and my name starts with N.. hmm.. hahaha, okie, i have to find something different from yours, well, almost okie...

Here's how it works. Use the first letter of your name to answer each question. Must be real places,names....Nothing made up. Can't use own name for boy/girl's name question.

If you cant answer,skip it.

1. Famous Singer: Norah Jones

2. Four letter word: Neat!

3. Street: Nottingham

4. Color: Neutral

5. Gifts/Presents: Notepad

6. Vehicle: Nissan

7. Things in Souvenir Shop: Nemo Huggables

8. Boy Name: Nathan

9. Girl Name: Nurul Alisyah

10. Movie Title: Norbit

11. Drink: Naked Twister

12. Occupation: Nymph

13. Celebrity: N' Sync

14. Magazine: Newsweek

15. U.S. City: Newark

16. Pro Sports: Netball

17. Fruit: Nenas (pineapple in malay language)

18. Reason For Being Late To Work: Not sober

19. Something You Throw Away: Non-alcoholic drinks

20. Something You Shout: Not on my drink!

21. Cartoon Character: Non -Sequitur

I would like to tag CM and SuperN for this one..heheh

Ramadhan

It's the time of the year again, it feels like yesterday when i posted last year's Ramadhan and here we are again...

Here's to wishing cooler days this year, ok, wait, that is being selfish, wishing something for my sake.. hmmm.. so, here's wishing for cooler days and many more..hehehe...

Happy Ramadhan to all!

Hibernating Period

You realise you've been hibernating too long, when the last update was almost 2 months ago, and you wonder what happened to time???



The last couple of months, was busy getting used to the loss of one of your love ones, and settle down to selling your flat.. and that itself is one of the most tiresome thing to do.

You either get a good honest house agent, or the skinny, evil looking ones and you realise too late, you have signed a deal with the Devil himself, but lucky for me, the Devil decided to let me go, but only after i threatened the word legal and law, for even the Devil shivers the mere mention of lawyers. But if have it my way, i would want them to be locked in, watch tyra banks show over and over again, eat chips but, we add sugar to it (they have to be active to look at tyra, anyway) and drink salt water (they need salt for the chips). I don't know, maybe someone might take up my idea.

There's still few issues to settle before the we hand over the papers for the sale of the flat, and you walk around every room, not that theres many rooms around, and all the memories, good and bad flooding you..well, maybe another story to tell, for another day.



For now, its spending time with Lars now that he is in Singapore, sweating himself, and us preparing for the wedding in December.

Goodbye Sasi.... Old Friend!

I was to write about my Perth trip with the family last week... but, i came back home to the death of my old friend, Sasi.

She came into our lives, stood at the doorway, 6.30am, all beaten up, one eye blind, and nose always wet, since then, she has lived with us for the past 12/13 years, a brat of a cat, mum would call her. she only eats Fancy Feasts, and Whiskas dry biscuits. Her favourite would be vanilla ice-cream, cheese, yogurt and more cheese, and thats precisely what i eat the most too... :)

Even when she died, she wanted me to find her, my brothers thought she was missing and no one told me till i came home and was told she was missing, but being the cat that loves to play hide and seek and running, i knew most of her hiding places, and i would like to believe she wanted me to find her and found her i did, and i will not forget the sight of my cat in her favourite sleeping position but this time, she will never wake up.

It's been a long journey of moving 3 homes with us, this being her final. I am going to miss you so much, its weird not to have you sleeping beside me, irritating me and walking up and down and making noise. You were sick, you were tired, and as Gerard said, you needed your much needed rest now.. I know you're happy wherever you are, no more coughing, no more pain.

Thank you for being a part of my life, and a friend and making our lives more meaningful, especially for me!

Till we meet again, one day, i hope.... Goodbye Sasi, i hope i loved you enough.... it will take some time for me to get use to you being gone....

Happy Birthday Feli! :D

Dearest Feli,

If I could catch a rainbow

I would do it just for you,

And share with you its beauty

On the days you're feeling blue

If I could build a mountain

You could call your very own,

A place to find serenity,

A place to be alone

If I could take your troubles

I would toss them in the sea,

But all these things I'm finding

Are impossible for me

I cannot build a mountain,

Or catch a rainbow fair,

But let me be what I know best,

A friend who's always there

- Author Unknown -

Love Defined

Love Defined

What is love, but an emotion,

So strong and so pure,

That nurtured and shared with another

All tests it will endure?

What is love, but a force

To bring the mighty low,

With the strength to shame the mountains

And halt time’s ceaseless flow?

What is love, but a triumph,

A glorious goal attained,

The union of two souls, two hearts

A bond the angels have ordained?

What is love, but a champion,

To cast the tyrant from his throne,

And raise the flag of truth and peace,

And fear of death o’erthrow?

What is love, but a beacon,

To guide the wayward heart,

A blazing light upon the shoals

That dash cherished dreams apart?

And what is love, but forever,

Eternal and sincere,

A flame that through wax and wane

Will outlive life’s brief years?

So I’ll tell it on the mountaintops,

In all places high and low,

That love for you is my reason to be,

And will never break or bow.

- Matt Dubois -

Summer in Matane

Summer has come...finally!!! and here are the pics of the garden.. The cherry trees are blooming flowers, and soon, the fruits will be bursting out.. and on the side of the wall, would be the rosemary, salads, and peppers... or something else.. i cant even remember now..

Bugged!

the past 3 days of fever, sniffles, coughing like a dog..... and this is practically ME!

Real Girl - Mutya

Thanks to Eleanor (see, i did mention your name, moron!)..hehehe
She sent me this song couple of weeks ago, and i am loving it!

The video from Youtube is awesome too.

Real Girl - Mutya

If I had one chance to

In my life again

I wouldn't make no changes

Now or way back when (yeah)

And if everything turns out

The way I hope it goes

But I cant wait to find out

What it is that God knows

But I don't wanna think about

What's gonna come around for me

I'll just take it day by day

'

Cause it's the only way

To be the best that I can be

I never pretend to be something I'm not

You get what you see, when you see what I've got

We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl

I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself

I don't need permission from nobody else

'Cause this is the real world,

I'm not a little girlI know exactly who I am

And nothing's ever perfect

There's no guarantee

And if I knew the answers

It would put my mind at ease (no)

So I'll just keep on going

The way I've gone so far

And maybe I'll end up

Tryin' to catch a fallin star (yeah)

But I don't wanna think about

What's gonna come around for me

I'll just take it day by day

'Cause it's the only way

To be the best that I can be

I never pretend to be something I'm not

You get what you see, when you see what I've got

We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl

I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself

I don't need permission from nobody else

'Cause this is the real world,

I'm not a little girl

I know exactly who I am

Baby this is who I am

Don't need you to understand

'Cause everything is right where it should be

It wont be long til you know about me,

'Cause I don't give a...

Even when I'm out of love

Post Secret This Week

When i was in Matane couple of months ago, we managed to buy Post Secret from amazon.ca, and it was worth the money.. all those interesting postcards.

This week, they have interesting new posts... am going to cut and paste down here and share it for i can relate to them... :) and i thank God for His blessings..always!

Have a good Tuesday, SuperN, tomorrow, the start of midweek crisis..i have decided to stare at someone and say, you're IT and run like the demon is chasing me! hahahah...

Take care folks!


-----Email Message-----
Sent: Sunday, May 27, 2007 3:30 AM
Subject: happy with who i've become

it feels like my whole life has been full of losses. but more than ever i am so happy with the way i am too. ive learned so much about myself and am glad i can honestly say i respect myself. every loss we face is a moment we have survived. and everyday i feel like a stronger person because of those misfortunes. i dont know how i did it or how i will for the rest of my life. but without losses, i wouldnt know who i am right now. its a beautiful thing!

-----End Message----------

Email Message-----Sent: Sunday, May 27, 2007 3:21 AM
Subject: year of losses

It's funny how losing everything helps you find yourself.So I'd like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who has believed rumors, hated me, tormented me, screwed me over, and abandoned me this year. You made me who I am. And I finally love myself.

-----End Message----------

Email Message-----
Sent: Sunday, May 27, 2007 1:53 AM
Subject: happily

Frank--Today I begin my path to my happily ever after. The tears that your project has brought to my eyes have been healing, sorrowful, joyful, and sad. Most of all, they are reflections my life in others' secrets.As for my happily ever after, I'm not going to give up on it. For the first time in my life, I'm sticking to something until I find it, even if I have to go it alone, with just the help of the secrets I see on your site every Sunday. Step by step I'll get there, some smaller steps than others, but I'll get there.--Ashely

Aging...

Feli, thanks for this one... made my Monday more bearable, plus a Grande Latte from Starbucks!!... hahaha

George Carlin's Views on Aging

Do you realize that the only time in our lives when we like to get old is when we're kids?

If you're less than 10 years old, you're so excited about aging that you think in fractions. "How old are you?" "I'm four and a half!" You're never thirty-six and a half. You're four and a half, going on five! That's the key You get into your teens, now they can't hold you back. You jump to the next number, or even a few ahead.

"How old are you?" "I'm gonna be 16!" You could be 13, but hey, you're gonna be 16! And then the greatest day of your life . . . you become 21. Even the words sound like a ceremony YOU BECOME 21. YESSSS!!!

But then you turn 30. Oooohh, what happened there? Makes you sound like bad milk! He TURNED ; we had to throw him out. There's no fun now, you're Just a sour-dumpling. What's wrong? What's changed?You BECOME 21, you TURN 30, then you're PUSHING 40. Whoa! Put on the brakes, it's all slipping away. Before you know it, you REACH 50 and your dreams are gone

But wait!!! You MAKE it to 60. You didn't think you would!So you BECOME 21, TURN 30, PUSH 40, REACH 50 and MAKE it to 60. You've built up so much speed that you HIT 70! After that it's a day-by-day thing; you HIT !

You get into your 80s and every day is a complete cycle; you HIT lunch; you TURN 4:30 ; you REACH bedtime And it doesn't end there.

Into the 90s, you start going backwards; "I Was JUST 92." Then a strange thing happens. If you make it over 100, you become a little kid again. "I'm 100 and a half!" May you all make it to a healthy 100 and a half!!

HOW TO STAY YOUNG

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay "them."

2. Keep only cheerful friends . The grouches pull you down.

3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer , crafts, gardening , whatever. Never let the brain idle. "An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud . Laugh until you gasp for breath.

6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person, who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love, whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music , plants, hobbies , whatever. Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it . If it is unstable,improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9 Don't take guilt trips . Take a trip to the mall , even to the next county; to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.

10.Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity. AND ALWAYS REMEMBER : Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away .

And if you don 't send this to at least 8 people - who cares???

But do share this with someone. We all need to live life to its fullest each day!!

God Foedselsdag Mikkel!

Mikkel, your birthday is today.
We will listen to what you say.
Tell us now what we should do.
We will do it just for you!
Mikkel, your birthday is today!
Happy, happy, happy day!

With Hugs and Love,

Uncle Lars and Aunt Idah

Summer.. hhhmm, in Singapore?

Singapore is very much an island with tropical weather, not so much like Hawaii, but i would like to think, we're cool enough... where east meets west, although i can't say much for our Ms Universe contestants... *FAINT*

Everyday is summer here, it's either sunny or thunderstorm, and playing in the rain is the best thing ever...:D

Okie, SuperN, let me combine my stay in Matane with Lars during summer (although 18 degrees is not summer to me) and the summer here in Singapore... heheeh.

1. Eating caramel ice-cream cone with Lars while driving through town.

2. Eating fresh cold water-melons,mangoes and oranges after u come home from the hot sun!

3. Heavy platter of rain after a hot day!... and you pretend to walk slowly although home is just 10 steps away...hehehe

4. The trip to this garden, created by some people for delinquent kids to spend time other than doing other weird stuff.. they had nice berries to eat!!

5. Eating cherries, rasberries and strawberries in Lars garden! my first time doing it, and it was really really good!!..hahah

6. Taking a long cold shower, and no kids banging on the bathroom door at my sis place

7. How beautifully bright the sun is... and how much i would run to the nearest mall for some air-conditioning!!!!! kekekekek

8. Last but not least... after spending bitter cold winter in Canada, summer is always very much welcomed!

cats and coffee.. something for my mid-week crisis

The Road

Cormac McCarthy's The Road has been awarded the 2007 Pulitzer Prize for Fiction.

I am not a fan of all Oprah's pick on books, but this one, she didnt do wrong!

Feli, it's a must buy or please wait till June! :D

Answering Machine Says...

1. Sorry I can’t get to the phone right now because my girlfriend and I are doing our favorite thing together. Personally I like doing it up and down, while she likes doing it side-to-side r-e-a-l slow...
So I’ll get back to you when we finish brushing our teeth.

2. "911 - What is your emergency?"

3. Hi! John's answering machine is broken. This is his refrigerator. Please speak very slowly and I'll stick your message to myself with one of these magnets.

4. Hi. This is John: If you are the phone company, I already sent the money. If you are my parents, please send money. If you are my financial aid institution, you didn't lend me enough money. If you are my friends, you owe me money. If you are a female, don't worry, I have plenty of money.

5. This is not an answering machine this is a telepathic thought-recording device. After the tone, think about your name, your reason for calling, and a number where I can reach you, and I'll think about returning your call.

6. Hello. I'm home right now but cannot find the phone. Please leave a message and I will call you back as soon as I find it.

7. A is for academics, B is for beer. One of those reasons is why we're not here. So leave a message.

8. Hi, I'm not home right now, but my answering machine is, so you can talk to it instead. Wait for the beep.

9. Please leave a beep at the message.

10. Please leave your name and number, and after I've doctored the tape, your message will implicate you in a federal crime and be brought to the attention of the FBI.

The Road Not Taken - Robert Frost

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,


And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.


I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.