One Headlight - The Wallflowers

Gerard, Jude and I would meet up whenever we felt that its been a long while since we had wine, smoke till our lungs burst or most probably mine and listen to songs, all our favourite songs. Gerard would be the DJ, and Jude at times. I just smoke and sing till someone shouts at me to shut up.

There is this one song i love, One Headlights, by The Wallflowers. I have been listening to it on YouTube, reminiscing ol`days. Jude is now married and the last time we met was a year ago, Gerard has been busy with work, we try to meet once a week but call each other once a day to make sure one is still alive and kicking. Best friends do that, i guess, but i think we do it cos we dont have anything better to do than to drive each other crazy.

I do not have his picture now to show (he`s single and available, by the way). I`ll do a blog on him on his birthday, well, maybe, if he`s nice enough..

So, if anyone has a chance to listen to this song... it`s my song!


One Headlight - The Wallflowers

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees
I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face So I wondered how she hung around this place

Chorus: Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than In the middle
But me & Cinderella We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge

(chorus)

Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me

Trip To Gaspé

Before i start on my trip to Gaspé this morning, i would like to share a story given to me by Ina, Lars mum. She wrote me an email last week when i could not find any positive or happy thoughts being in Matane during winter...

Ina, i hope you don`t mind me using your email version of the story, my way of saying thank you for caring! :D

The story of Pollyanna has been filmed and there are 3 books about her. They are written in the 20ties I think, but the moral in them are valid even today. I read them as a little girl, but I have used her method all my life and have told about it whenever I thought it could be understand. Once I had a young man in prison who couldn`t see any light ahead and whenever I saw him after that he raised his hand, gave me a smile and shouted: Pollyanna! No one but us knew what that meant, so here it is:

Pollyanna is a little girl, living in Africa with her parents, who were preaching the word of Lord Jesus. The parents die in a car accident and P. are sent back to England to live with an old aunt, who knew nothing about childrens need and grief. The aunt was good to Pollyanna, they lived with the days in strictly rituals, You know breakfast at 8, scool to 12, then I hours sleep, then tea, reading, 1 hours walk to exercise and no variations at all. P. was told not to talk about her parents, not to cry and she was very sad and lonely, no joy at all. Every night she prayed to God as she used to do in Africa and after telling God about her sorrows, praying for good health to the people she knew, she had learned to end every prayer with something to say thanks for. And she couldn`t find anything to be happy about and to thank God for. But anyway she always managed to find something. The first night she thanked God that she only had to eat porridge once a day. The next day something else, very small pleasures but as the time went by she became very good and adventurious in finding “Happy Things”
She was so positive all the time, that her sorrows dimmnissed and as time went by, learned her old aunt to be a happy person too.

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We woke up at 4.30am, picked up Jean-Pierre and headed to Gaspé, 3/4 hours away from Matane for Lars business meeting. It was raining, foggy, but the mountain sights were beautiful, with clouds hanging, windmills, and lake. It was still gray, but i realise, the big rocks had crystal snow coming down and it looks like a fall, a frozen fountain.. beautiful...

It`s 9.30am now, and i am at Gaspé University library, listening to songs from YouTube, typing on my blog and replying emails to friends. They have a wide collection of English books and literature (yes, literature!!!!!.. thank you Lord! )

Ina, i have found the happy things for today, i will let you know what i can find tomorrow on our weekly Friday email.

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol

Have you had one of those days when a song sticks to your head like your niece clamping on your feet when you have an ice-cream in hand?? well, i had the privilege of having this one song playing over and over in my head till i thought everyone looked like music icons... hehhehehe

Enjoy!!! Hope it sticks to your head now. HA HA!

Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything On our own
We don't need Anything Or anyone
If I lay here If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know How to say How I feel
Those three words Are said too much They're not enough
If I lay here If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time Chasing cars Around our heads
I need your grace To remind me To find my own
If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world

pictures... start from below...

lars backyard when we got home..




lars scraping snow after snow storm..hehehehe

me in montreal

when decisions have to be made

its been a long while since i wrote on my blog, i have been in matane, canada for 1.5 weeks now, and today the sun is shining brightly, reflections on the snow has that glittering light, temperature is up to -8..this was a beautiful day!

when you have been having dark, gray, cold windy, snowy week, and temperature down to -38, this is those days you get off bed and thank the Lord for the sun!

i never realise how it felt being alone at home, where every little sound you hear makes you jump up and wonder where it came from. i am known not to be brave when it comes to new strange place and left to myown revision and having a vivid and imaginative mind does not help either.

sometimes, being solace makes you think,and at times, it makes you think weird also, but as it is said... what does not kill you, makes you better, it has to!


only after talking and discussion did i realise how we both were not ready to take this plunge of wedded bliss in july...., it has to be right, it has to feel right and knowing that you love each other more and the feelings are stronger after talking about it does it feel so right.


i know some may read this and wonder what the hell is she talking about.. well, for those who does, this decision was made not base on me being a coward or butterflies in the stomach...

1 divorced family is enough to last me a lifetime, i want mine to last forever and to do that, i need to know i am ready and look back and say to myself.. wow, i have crossed that bridge!

waiting till dec 2007 is not so bad after alll, there will be more planning, more things organised and especially more of my unhealthy thoughts organised!

learning french for the time being would be a good idea too!!!..

Au Revoir... till my next blog update, some pictures for you guys out there, in case writing too much gets a little bit boring!!!

oh yes, can someone please update me on Heroes!!! i have been missing it for 2 episodes now... FAINT!!!