Monday, March 12, 2007

when decisions have to be made

its been a long while since i wrote on my blog, i have been in matane, canada for 1.5 weeks now, and today the sun is shining brightly, reflections on the snow has that glittering light, temperature is up to -8..this was a beautiful day!

when you have been having dark, gray, cold windy, snowy week, and temperature down to -38, this is those days you get off bed and thank the Lord for the sun!

i never realise how it felt being alone at home, where every little sound you hear makes you jump up and wonder where it came from. i am known not to be brave when it comes to new strange place and left to myown revision and having a vivid and imaginative mind does not help either.

sometimes, being solace makes you think,and at times, it makes you think weird also, but as it is said... what does not kill you, makes you better, it has to!


only after talking and discussion did i realise how we both were not ready to take this plunge of wedded bliss in july...., it has to be right, it has to feel right and knowing that you love each other more and the feelings are stronger after talking about it does it feel so right.


i know some may read this and wonder what the hell is she talking about.. well, for those who does, this decision was made not base on me being a coward or butterflies in the stomach...

1 divorced family is enough to last me a lifetime, i want mine to last forever and to do that, i need to know i am ready and look back and say to myself.. wow, i have crossed that bridge!

waiting till dec 2007 is not so bad after alll, there will be more planning, more things organised and especially more of my unhealthy thoughts organised!

learning french for the time being would be a good idea too!!!..

Au Revoir... till my next blog update, some pictures for you guys out there, in case writing too much gets a little bit boring!!!

oh yes, can someone please update me on Heroes!!! i have been missing it for 2 episodes now... FAINT!!!

6 comments:

supernova said...

It takes a lot of courage to really wait for the right time/moment! Good going! All the best in making the right decision!

Heroes; I haven't been able to catch it myself for eons now! :-/

Brecht said...

we expect nothing less than 2 invitations, one for spore and one for denmark and receiving one for canada is an added bonus for us = ) But of course all that doesnt mean or indicated a garantee that we will be able to show up = ) Hugs!

Miss Iyer said...

"very little sound you hear makes you jump up and wonder where it came from"

U bet! I remember one of those nights when i called up so many friends, i had the entire city up cos i heard something weird in the balcony :D

Anonymous said...

miss iyer,

thank you... hahah, but i kept this friend of mine in singapore awake till 3am that one day, he said he coulnt sleep it either!

Chandramohan 'CM' Kannan said...

Welcome back!!! and kudos for the decison... when are the invites coming??

Anonymous said...

CM,

hehehe, invites will come sometime this year, God's willing... :D

a trip to singapore or canada maybe?