as the seagull flew by the window...

As i sit here, listening to songs on youtube, sitting by the window, a seagull flew by... and hinder singing, Better Than Me on the background...

I'm in Denmark, home to Lars parents... officially my in laws, now that i am a wife. It seems strange to be saying it, a single woman for the past 35 years and now a wife to someone.

Saying goodbye was never easy for me, hate goodbyes, still do, and saying goodbye to your family you live with, a mother you sleep with, a sister you nag at and argue with, and kids you keep screaming and kissing all at the same time, and not forgetting 2 brothers you always wonder about their common sense.... all these came in flashes when u sit thousand of miles away, while the world go on by, and only then you realise, this is it, you're on your own now missy!

The faces you wish you see one more time, the last hug, the last kisses... and the last step out of home.

Nickelback - Photograph

Look at this photograph

Every time I do it makes me laugh

How did our eyes get so red?

And what the hell is on Joey's head?

This is where I grew up

I think the present owner fixed it up

I never knew we ever went without

The second floor is hard for sneaking out

This is where I went to school

Most of the time had better things to do

Criminal record says I broke in twice

I must've done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it's too late

Should I go back and try to graduate

Life's better now than it was back then

If I was them I would of let me in

Oh oh ohOh god I, I

Every memory of looking out the back door

I have a photo album spread out on my bedroom floor

It's hard to say,It's time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door

I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for

It's hard to say,It's time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

Remember the old arcade

Blew every dollar that we ever made

The cops hated us hangin' out

They say somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio

And sing along with every song we know

We said someday we'd find out how it feels

To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed

I was so nervous that I nearly missed

She's had a couple of kids since then

I haven't seen her since God knows when

Oh oh ohOh god I, I

Every memory of looking out the back door

I have a photo album spread out on my bedroom floor

It's hard to say, It's time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door

I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for

It's hard to say, It's time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

I miss that town

I miss their faces

You can't erase

You can't replace it

I miss it now

I can't believe it

So hard to stay

Too hard to leave it

If I could relive those days

I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door

I have a photo album spread out on my bedroom floor

It's hard to say,It's time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door

I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for

It's hard to say, It's time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

Look at this photograph

Every time I do it makes me laugh

Every time I do it makes me...

Taking A Break...

I am officially taking a break from blogging for a couple of months...

Due to packing and moving to another home and wedding preparations, i will be lucky if i have time stare into space...

But, to all friends, you know where to find me, no, not Timbre or Holland Village, am too busy, ok, wait, who am i kidding,..hahhaha, ok, email me or call me if someone is in need, and ONLY if there are drinks.. will i come in a flash.

Seriously

Eid Mubarak to all...

Have a Blessed and Enjoyable Day With Your Love Ones!

From,

Idah and Lars

Make A Memory...

Thanks to my sis, i'm all addicted to this song.. plus many others from her, and she's the stay-home mum!! something is not right here... :D

Video clip here

Bon Jovi - You Want Make A Memory

Hello again, it's you and me

Kinda always like it used to be
Sippin' wine, killing time
Trying to solve life's mysteries
How's your life, it's been a while
God it's good to see you smile



I see you reaching for your keys
Looking for a reason not to leave
If you don't know if you should stay
If you don't say what's on your mind

Baby just breathe
There's nowhere else tonight we should be


You wanna make a memory?
I dug up this old photograph
Look at all that hair we had.
It's bittersweet to hear you laugh
Your phone is ringing I don't wanna ask


(You Want To) Make a Memory
If you go now, I'll understand
If you stay, hey, I've got a plan


We're gonna make a memory
You wanna steal a piece of time
You can sing the melody to me
And I can write a couple of lines

You wanna make a memory?

If you don't know if you should stay
And you don't say what's on your mind
Baby just breathe
There's nowhere else tonight we should be
We Should be


You wanna make a memory
You wanna steal a piece of time
You can sing the melody to me
And I can write a couple of lines
You wanna make a memory?

Tag

Ms Envy, since you have tagged me and my name starts with N.. hmm.. hahaha, okie, i have to find something different from yours, well, almost okie...

Here's how it works. Use the first letter of your name to answer each question. Must be real places,names....Nothing made up. Can't use own name for boy/girl's name question.

If you cant answer,skip it.

1. Famous Singer: Norah Jones

2. Four letter word: Neat!

3. Street: Nottingham

4. Color: Neutral

5. Gifts/Presents: Notepad

6. Vehicle: Nissan

7. Things in Souvenir Shop: Nemo Huggables

8. Boy Name: Nathan

9. Girl Name: Nurul Alisyah

10. Movie Title: Norbit

11. Drink: Naked Twister

12. Occupation: Nymph

13. Celebrity: N' Sync

14. Magazine: Newsweek

15. U.S. City: Newark

16. Pro Sports: Netball

17. Fruit: Nenas (pineapple in malay language)

18. Reason For Being Late To Work: Not sober

19. Something You Throw Away: Non-alcoholic drinks

20. Something You Shout: Not on my drink!

21. Cartoon Character: Non -Sequitur

I would like to tag CM and SuperN for this one..heheh

Ramadhan

It's the time of the year again, it feels like yesterday when i posted last year's Ramadhan and here we are again...

Here's to wishing cooler days this year, ok, wait, that is being selfish, wishing something for my sake.. hmmm.. so, here's wishing for cooler days and many more..hehehe...

Happy Ramadhan to all!

Hibernating Period

You realise you've been hibernating too long, when the last update was almost 2 months ago, and you wonder what happened to time???



The last couple of months, was busy getting used to the loss of one of your love ones, and settle down to selling your flat.. and that itself is one of the most tiresome thing to do.

You either get a good honest house agent, or the skinny, evil looking ones and you realise too late, you have signed a deal with the Devil himself, but lucky for me, the Devil decided to let me go, but only after i threatened the word legal and law, for even the Devil shivers the mere mention of lawyers. But if have it my way, i would want them to be locked in, watch tyra banks show over and over again, eat chips but, we add sugar to it (they have to be active to look at tyra, anyway) and drink salt water (they need salt for the chips). I don't know, maybe someone might take up my idea.

There's still few issues to settle before the we hand over the papers for the sale of the flat, and you walk around every room, not that theres many rooms around, and all the memories, good and bad flooding you..well, maybe another story to tell, for another day.



For now, its spending time with Lars now that he is in Singapore, sweating himself, and us preparing for the wedding in December.

Goodbye Sasi.... Old Friend!

I was to write about my Perth trip with the family last week... but, i came back home to the death of my old friend, Sasi.

She came into our lives, stood at the doorway, 6.30am, all beaten up, one eye blind, and nose always wet, since then, she has lived with us for the past 12/13 years, a brat of a cat, mum would call her. she only eats Fancy Feasts, and Whiskas dry biscuits. Her favourite would be vanilla ice-cream, cheese, yogurt and more cheese, and thats precisely what i eat the most too... :)

Even when she died, she wanted me to find her, my brothers thought she was missing and no one told me till i came home and was told she was missing, but being the cat that loves to play hide and seek and running, i knew most of her hiding places, and i would like to believe she wanted me to find her and found her i did, and i will not forget the sight of my cat in her favourite sleeping position but this time, she will never wake up.

It's been a long journey of moving 3 homes with us, this being her final. I am going to miss you so much, its weird not to have you sleeping beside me, irritating me and walking up and down and making noise. You were sick, you were tired, and as Gerard said, you needed your much needed rest now.. I know you're happy wherever you are, no more coughing, no more pain.

Thank you for being a part of my life, and a friend and making our lives more meaningful, especially for me!

Till we meet again, one day, i hope.... Goodbye Sasi, i hope i loved you enough.... it will take some time for me to get use to you being gone....

Happy Birthday Feli! :D

Dearest Feli,

If I could catch a rainbow

I would do it just for you,

And share with you its beauty

On the days you're feeling blue

If I could build a mountain

You could call your very own,

A place to find serenity,

A place to be alone

If I could take your troubles

I would toss them in the sea,

But all these things I'm finding

Are impossible for me

I cannot build a mountain,

Or catch a rainbow fair,

But let me be what I know best,

A friend who's always there

- Author Unknown -

Love Defined

Love Defined

What is love, but an emotion,

So strong and so pure,

That nurtured and shared with another

All tests it will endure?

What is love, but a force

To bring the mighty low,

With the strength to shame the mountains

And halt time’s ceaseless flow?

What is love, but a triumph,

A glorious goal attained,

The union of two souls, two hearts

A bond the angels have ordained?

What is love, but a champion,

To cast the tyrant from his throne,

And raise the flag of truth and peace,

And fear of death o’erthrow?

What is love, but a beacon,

To guide the wayward heart,

A blazing light upon the shoals

That dash cherished dreams apart?

And what is love, but forever,

Eternal and sincere,

A flame that through wax and wane

Will outlive life’s brief years?

So I’ll tell it on the mountaintops,

In all places high and low,

That love for you is my reason to be,

And will never break or bow.

- Matt Dubois -

Summer in Matane

Summer has come...finally!!! and here are the pics of the garden.. The cherry trees are blooming flowers, and soon, the fruits will be bursting out.. and on the side of the wall, would be the rosemary, salads, and peppers... or something else.. i cant even remember now..

Bugged!

the past 3 days of fever, sniffles, coughing like a dog..... and this is practically ME!

Real Girl - Mutya

Thanks to Eleanor (see, i did mention your name, moron!)..hehehe
She sent me this song couple of weeks ago, and i am loving it!

The video from Youtube is awesome too.

Real Girl - Mutya

If I had one chance to

In my life again

I wouldn't make no changes

Now or way back when (yeah)

And if everything turns out

The way I hope it goes

But I cant wait to find out

What it is that God knows

But I don't wanna think about

What's gonna come around for me

I'll just take it day by day

'

Cause it's the only way

To be the best that I can be

I never pretend to be something I'm not

You get what you see, when you see what I've got

We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl

I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself

I don't need permission from nobody else

'Cause this is the real world,

I'm not a little girlI know exactly who I am

And nothing's ever perfect

There's no guarantee

And if I knew the answers

It would put my mind at ease (no)

So I'll just keep on going

The way I've gone so far

And maybe I'll end up

Tryin' to catch a fallin star (yeah)

But I don't wanna think about

What's gonna come around for me

I'll just take it day by day

'Cause it's the only way

To be the best that I can be

I never pretend to be something I'm not

You get what you see, when you see what I've got

We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl

I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself

I don't need permission from nobody else

'Cause this is the real world,

I'm not a little girl

I know exactly who I am

Baby this is who I am

Don't need you to understand

'Cause everything is right where it should be

It wont be long til you know about me,

'Cause I don't give a...

Even when I'm out of love

Post Secret This Week

When i was in Matane couple of months ago, we managed to buy Post Secret from amazon.ca, and it was worth the money.. all those interesting postcards.

This week, they have interesting new posts... am going to cut and paste down here and share it for i can relate to them... :) and i thank God for His blessings..always!

Have a good Tuesday, SuperN, tomorrow, the start of midweek crisis..i have decided to stare at someone and say, you're IT and run like the demon is chasing me! hahahah...

Take care folks!


-----Email Message-----
Sent: Sunday, May 27, 2007 3:30 AM
Subject: happy with who i've become

it feels like my whole life has been full of losses. but more than ever i am so happy with the way i am too. ive learned so much about myself and am glad i can honestly say i respect myself. every loss we face is a moment we have survived. and everyday i feel like a stronger person because of those misfortunes. i dont know how i did it or how i will for the rest of my life. but without losses, i wouldnt know who i am right now. its a beautiful thing!

-----End Message----------

Email Message-----Sent: Sunday, May 27, 2007 3:21 AM
Subject: year of losses

It's funny how losing everything helps you find yourself.So I'd like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who has believed rumors, hated me, tormented me, screwed me over, and abandoned me this year. You made me who I am. And I finally love myself.

-----End Message----------

Email Message-----
Sent: Sunday, May 27, 2007 1:53 AM
Subject: happily

Frank--Today I begin my path to my happily ever after. The tears that your project has brought to my eyes have been healing, sorrowful, joyful, and sad. Most of all, they are reflections my life in others' secrets.As for my happily ever after, I'm not going to give up on it. For the first time in my life, I'm sticking to something until I find it, even if I have to go it alone, with just the help of the secrets I see on your site every Sunday. Step by step I'll get there, some smaller steps than others, but I'll get there.--Ashely

Aging...

Feli, thanks for this one... made my Monday more bearable, plus a Grande Latte from Starbucks!!... hahaha

George Carlin's Views on Aging

Do you realize that the only time in our lives when we like to get old is when we're kids?

If you're less than 10 years old, you're so excited about aging that you think in fractions. "How old are you?" "I'm four and a half!" You're never thirty-six and a half. You're four and a half, going on five! That's the key You get into your teens, now they can't hold you back. You jump to the next number, or even a few ahead.

"How old are you?" "I'm gonna be 16!" You could be 13, but hey, you're gonna be 16! And then the greatest day of your life . . . you become 21. Even the words sound like a ceremony YOU BECOME 21. YESSSS!!!

But then you turn 30. Oooohh, what happened there? Makes you sound like bad milk! He TURNED ; we had to throw him out. There's no fun now, you're Just a sour-dumpling. What's wrong? What's changed?You BECOME 21, you TURN 30, then you're PUSHING 40. Whoa! Put on the brakes, it's all slipping away. Before you know it, you REACH 50 and your dreams are gone

But wait!!! You MAKE it to 60. You didn't think you would!So you BECOME 21, TURN 30, PUSH 40, REACH 50 and MAKE it to 60. You've built up so much speed that you HIT 70! After that it's a day-by-day thing; you HIT !

You get into your 80s and every day is a complete cycle; you HIT lunch; you TURN 4:30 ; you REACH bedtime And it doesn't end there.

Into the 90s, you start going backwards; "I Was JUST 92." Then a strange thing happens. If you make it over 100, you become a little kid again. "I'm 100 and a half!" May you all make it to a healthy 100 and a half!!

HOW TO STAY YOUNG

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay "them."

2. Keep only cheerful friends . The grouches pull you down.

3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer , crafts, gardening , whatever. Never let the brain idle. "An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often, long and loud . Laugh until you gasp for breath.

6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person, who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love, whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music , plants, hobbies , whatever. Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it . If it is unstable,improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9 Don't take guilt trips . Take a trip to the mall , even to the next county; to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.

10.Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity. AND ALWAYS REMEMBER : Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away .

And if you don 't send this to at least 8 people - who cares???

But do share this with someone. We all need to live life to its fullest each day!!

God Foedselsdag Mikkel!

Mikkel, your birthday is today.
We will listen to what you say.
Tell us now what we should do.
We will do it just for you!
Mikkel, your birthday is today!
Happy, happy, happy day!

With Hugs and Love,

Uncle Lars and Aunt Idah

Summer.. hhhmm, in Singapore?

Singapore is very much an island with tropical weather, not so much like Hawaii, but i would like to think, we're cool enough... where east meets west, although i can't say much for our Ms Universe contestants... *FAINT*

Everyday is summer here, it's either sunny or thunderstorm, and playing in the rain is the best thing ever...:D

Okie, SuperN, let me combine my stay in Matane with Lars during summer (although 18 degrees is not summer to me) and the summer here in Singapore... heheeh.

1. Eating caramel ice-cream cone with Lars while driving through town.

2. Eating fresh cold water-melons,mangoes and oranges after u come home from the hot sun!

3. Heavy platter of rain after a hot day!... and you pretend to walk slowly although home is just 10 steps away...hehehe

4. The trip to this garden, created by some people for delinquent kids to spend time other than doing other weird stuff.. they had nice berries to eat!!

5. Eating cherries, rasberries and strawberries in Lars garden! my first time doing it, and it was really really good!!..hahah

6. Taking a long cold shower, and no kids banging on the bathroom door at my sis place

7. How beautifully bright the sun is... and how much i would run to the nearest mall for some air-conditioning!!!!! kekekekek

8. Last but not least... after spending bitter cold winter in Canada, summer is always very much welcomed!

cats and coffee.. something for my mid-week crisis

The Road

Cormac McCarthy's The Road has been awarded the 2007 Pulitzer Prize for Fiction.

I am not a fan of all Oprah's pick on books, but this one, she didnt do wrong!

Feli, it's a must buy or please wait till June! :D

Answering Machine Says...

1. Sorry I can’t get to the phone right now because my girlfriend and I are doing our favorite thing together. Personally I like doing it up and down, while she likes doing it side-to-side r-e-a-l slow...
So I’ll get back to you when we finish brushing our teeth.

2. "911 - What is your emergency?"

3. Hi! John's answering machine is broken. This is his refrigerator. Please speak very slowly and I'll stick your message to myself with one of these magnets.

4. Hi. This is John: If you are the phone company, I already sent the money. If you are my parents, please send money. If you are my financial aid institution, you didn't lend me enough money. If you are my friends, you owe me money. If you are a female, don't worry, I have plenty of money.

5. This is not an answering machine this is a telepathic thought-recording device. After the tone, think about your name, your reason for calling, and a number where I can reach you, and I'll think about returning your call.

6. Hello. I'm home right now but cannot find the phone. Please leave a message and I will call you back as soon as I find it.

7. A is for academics, B is for beer. One of those reasons is why we're not here. So leave a message.

8. Hi, I'm not home right now, but my answering machine is, so you can talk to it instead. Wait for the beep.

9. Please leave a beep at the message.

10. Please leave your name and number, and after I've doctored the tape, your message will implicate you in a federal crime and be brought to the attention of the FBI.

The Road Not Taken - Robert Frost

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,


And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.


I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Odd Thomas - Dean Koontz

During my stay in Matane, i read the last series to Odd Thomas. I will wait with much fingers drumming for Koontz to write another one of Odd adventures, "loop me in, odd one"

I now leave you with excerpts and reviews...

Excerpts:

CHAPTER ONE

Embraced by stone, steeped in silence, I sat at the high window as the third day of the week surrendered to the fourth. The river of night rolled on, indifferent to the calendar.
I hoped to witness that magical moment when the snow began to fall in earnest. Earlier the sky had shed a few flakes, then nothing more. The pending storm would not be rushed.

The room was illuminated only by a fat candle in an amber glass on the corner desk. Each time a draft found the flame, melting light buttered the limestone walls, and waves of fluid shadows oiled the corners.

Most nights, I find lamplight too bright. And when I'm writing, the only glow is the computer screen, dialed down to gray text on a navy-blue field.

Without a silvering of light, the window did not reflect my face. I had a clear view of the night beyond the panes.

Living in a monastery, even as a guest rather than as a monk, you have more opportunities than you might have elsewhere to see the world as it is, instead of through the shadow that you cast upon it.

St. Bartholomew's Abbey was surrounded by the vastness of the Sierra Nevada, on the California side of the border. The primeval forests that clothed the rising slopes were themselves cloaked in darkness.

From this third-floor window, I could see only part of the deep front yard and the blacktop lane that cleaved it. Four low lampposts with bell-shaped caps focused light in round pale pools.

The guesthouse is in the northwest wing of the abbey. The ground floor features parlors. Private rooms occupy the higher and the highest floors.

As I watched in anticipation of the storm, a whiteness that was not snow drifted across the yard, out of darkness, into lamplight.

The abbey has one dog, a 110-pound German-shepherd mix, perhaps part Labrador retriever. He is entirely white and moves with the grace of fog. His name is Boo.

My name is Odd Thomas. My dysfunctional parents claim a mistake was made on the birth certificate, that Todd was the wanted name. Yet they have never called me Todd.

Reviews:

"Engaging?. An irresistibly offbeat mix of supernatural horror and laugh-out-loud humor."—Publishers Weekly

"Odd Thomas' latest adventure will make a believer out of even the hardest-nosed soul."—Denver Post

"An irresistibly offbeat mix of supernatural horror and laugh-out-loud humor."—Arizona Daily Star

Spring, Where Art Thou

Spring, Where Art Thou - by Idah X
This one's for you sweetie...


O' Winter
Your Presence Were Felt

Your Soft Whites Ever so Pure
Glistening Under The Sunlight
Though Dark, Gray Storms
Were One Too Many At Times

May is Beckoning…
April is Leaving…

Won’t You Leave and
Let Us Be Merry…

Till August.. Bring It On!

Well, i am back at my old job, good thing was, boss didnt ask back for his Tag Heuer watch..heheh, or i would have given him the look or kick his ass, ok, i hope he doesnt read this.

My 1 month with Lars made me realise, there are loads of ups and downs in one's life, be it personal or own creation. Communication is the essence and having few close friends and love ones, makes it easier, for it is difficult for them at the same time.

Family matters, no matter where you are, Lars family is one good example, no matter how far apart he is from his family, they are close knit, it was not easy for either, but time, as always, will mend and heal everything.

My family, no matter how weird, how scary we get at times, we are as close as it gets, being just miserable happy, if there is such word. Coming home and arguing with sis had never been such fun, or listening to kids screaming... and then when the jetlag has worn off and reality kicks in, you need 2 aspirin just so the throbbing pain will stop at some point... hahahahah.

I am looking forward to August now, to be together with my better half.. till then, i have driving lessons, screaming babies strapping to my legs, siblings to argue with, mum to drive up the wall, friends to get merry with and last but foremost, my work!!!!! I always say, Good Lord loves me, and He does...

Have a great week ahead!

This is Idah signing off..

Be Kind To Animals, Kick Only Human!

Happy Birthday Dad!

To my Dad on his day,

Of whom I am a living will:

May your happiness fulfill

Your goodness, as is just and right.

Deeds are seeds upon the night

As wind and wonder have their way,

Delivering the destined light.

Happy Birthday!, Til lykke med fødselsdagen!, Voeux de bonheur!

With Much Love From Us Both!

Hope you enjoyed your holiday in Greece...

much excerpts from the Net....

One Headlight - The Wallflowers

Gerard, Jude and I would meet up whenever we felt that its been a long while since we had wine, smoke till our lungs burst or most probably mine and listen to songs, all our favourite songs. Gerard would be the DJ, and Jude at times. I just smoke and sing till someone shouts at me to shut up.

There is this one song i love, One Headlights, by The Wallflowers. I have been listening to it on YouTube, reminiscing ol`days. Jude is now married and the last time we met was a year ago, Gerard has been busy with work, we try to meet once a week but call each other once a day to make sure one is still alive and kicking. Best friends do that, i guess, but i think we do it cos we dont have anything better to do than to drive each other crazy.

I do not have his picture now to show (he`s single and available, by the way). I`ll do a blog on him on his birthday, well, maybe, if he`s nice enough..

So, if anyone has a chance to listen to this song... it`s my song!


One Headlight - The Wallflowers

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees
I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face So I wondered how she hung around this place

Chorus: Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than In the middle
But me & Cinderella We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge

(chorus)

Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me

Trip To Gaspé

Before i start on my trip to Gaspé this morning, i would like to share a story given to me by Ina, Lars mum. She wrote me an email last week when i could not find any positive or happy thoughts being in Matane during winter...

Ina, i hope you don`t mind me using your email version of the story, my way of saying thank you for caring! :D

The story of Pollyanna has been filmed and there are 3 books about her. They are written in the 20ties I think, but the moral in them are valid even today. I read them as a little girl, but I have used her method all my life and have told about it whenever I thought it could be understand. Once I had a young man in prison who couldn`t see any light ahead and whenever I saw him after that he raised his hand, gave me a smile and shouted: Pollyanna! No one but us knew what that meant, so here it is:

Pollyanna is a little girl, living in Africa with her parents, who were preaching the word of Lord Jesus. The parents die in a car accident and P. are sent back to England to live with an old aunt, who knew nothing about childrens need and grief. The aunt was good to Pollyanna, they lived with the days in strictly rituals, You know breakfast at 8, scool to 12, then I hours sleep, then tea, reading, 1 hours walk to exercise and no variations at all. P. was told not to talk about her parents, not to cry and she was very sad and lonely, no joy at all. Every night she prayed to God as she used to do in Africa and after telling God about her sorrows, praying for good health to the people she knew, she had learned to end every prayer with something to say thanks for. And she couldn`t find anything to be happy about and to thank God for. But anyway she always managed to find something. The first night she thanked God that she only had to eat porridge once a day. The next day something else, very small pleasures but as the time went by she became very good and adventurious in finding “Happy Things”
She was so positive all the time, that her sorrows dimmnissed and as time went by, learned her old aunt to be a happy person too.

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We woke up at 4.30am, picked up Jean-Pierre and headed to Gaspé, 3/4 hours away from Matane for Lars business meeting. It was raining, foggy, but the mountain sights were beautiful, with clouds hanging, windmills, and lake. It was still gray, but i realise, the big rocks had crystal snow coming down and it looks like a fall, a frozen fountain.. beautiful...

It`s 9.30am now, and i am at Gaspé University library, listening to songs from YouTube, typing on my blog and replying emails to friends. They have a wide collection of English books and literature (yes, literature!!!!!.. thank you Lord! )

Ina, i have found the happy things for today, i will let you know what i can find tomorrow on our weekly Friday email.

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol

Have you had one of those days when a song sticks to your head like your niece clamping on your feet when you have an ice-cream in hand?? well, i had the privilege of having this one song playing over and over in my head till i thought everyone looked like music icons... hehhehehe

Enjoy!!! Hope it sticks to your head now. HA HA!

Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything On our own
We don't need Anything Or anyone
If I lay here If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know How to say How I feel
Those three words Are said too much They're not enough
If I lay here If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time Chasing cars Around our heads
I need your grace To remind me To find my own
If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world

pictures... start from below...

lars backyard when we got home..




lars scraping snow after snow storm..hehehehe

me in montreal

when decisions have to be made

its been a long while since i wrote on my blog, i have been in matane, canada for 1.5 weeks now, and today the sun is shining brightly, reflections on the snow has that glittering light, temperature is up to -8..this was a beautiful day!

when you have been having dark, gray, cold windy, snowy week, and temperature down to -38, this is those days you get off bed and thank the Lord for the sun!

i never realise how it felt being alone at home, where every little sound you hear makes you jump up and wonder where it came from. i am known not to be brave when it comes to new strange place and left to myown revision and having a vivid and imaginative mind does not help either.

sometimes, being solace makes you think,and at times, it makes you think weird also, but as it is said... what does not kill you, makes you better, it has to!


only after talking and discussion did i realise how we both were not ready to take this plunge of wedded bliss in july...., it has to be right, it has to feel right and knowing that you love each other more and the feelings are stronger after talking about it does it feel so right.


i know some may read this and wonder what the hell is she talking about.. well, for those who does, this decision was made not base on me being a coward or butterflies in the stomach...

1 divorced family is enough to last me a lifetime, i want mine to last forever and to do that, i need to know i am ready and look back and say to myself.. wow, i have crossed that bridge!

waiting till dec 2007 is not so bad after alll, there will be more planning, more things organised and especially more of my unhealthy thoughts organised!

learning french for the time being would be a good idea too!!!..

Au Revoir... till my next blog update, some pictures for you guys out there, in case writing too much gets a little bit boring!!!

oh yes, can someone please update me on Heroes!!! i have been missing it for 2 episodes now... FAINT!!!

Cat Rulez!

There have been reports on our local newspaper about the hygiene and what to do with all the cats, be it as a pet or strays. I will simply say, when you hate cats, you should not call yourself an animal lover or even keep a dog....

To all those pet owners, sterilized your cats, it's the only way to go, given the circumstances.

Catz Rule!

2 days before V-Day

I woke up this morning, twisting and turning, wishing it was Sunday, but alas, life cruel fate has it, i had to drag my feet off, look at Sasi all curled up and snoring away, wishing that instant moment, should i kick her or let her sleep in peace, and of course, i bend down, shook her body and ask her to wake up! HA! if i have to wake up, so does my cat!

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As brightly as the sun would shine, it could not give that much light and heat to one's heart that is dark and cold.

Monday is here, and as i rush for my coffee madness, allowing caffeine to sip into my bloodstream and calmess wins again, i click on Post Secret for weekly updates.

I came across this card, and with coffee in one hand, smile on my face, fact be known, this card below was not written by me! :D



I dont believe in the commercial bit of Valentines, but, if it means, saying i love you ten time more, kissing your love ones every little chance you have, or simply spending more time in bed, i say Bring It On!

Top Ten Signs That You've Had Too Much Of The 90's...

Top Ten Signs That You've Had Too Much Of The 90's...


10. When you make phone calls from home, you accidentally insert a "9" to get an outside line.

9. When you go home after a long day at work you still answer the phone in a business manner.

8. You hear most of your jokes via email instead of in person.

7. Your idea of being organized is multiple colored post-it notes.

6. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends is that they do not have e-mail addresses.

5. You chat on-line regularly with a stranger from the US, but haven't spoken with your next door neighbor yet this year.

4. You e-mail your work colleague at the desk next to you to ask if they're ready to go to lunch. (Aren't we guilty for this one... hahahahah)

3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 4.

2. You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years.

1. You try to enter your password on the microwave.

Strange Facts

The first couple to be shown in bed together on prime time television were Fred and Wilma Flintstone.

Coca-Cola was originally green.

Every day more money is printed for Monopoly than the US Treasury.

Hawaiian alphabet has 12 letters.

Men can read smaller print than women; women can hear better.

City with the most Rolls Royce's per capita: Hong Kong

State with the highest percentage of people who walk to work: Alaska

Percentage of Africa that is wilderness: 28%

Percentage of North America that is wilderness: 38%

Barbie's measurements if she were life size: 39-23-33

Cost of raising a medium-size dog to the age of eleven: $6,400

Average number of people airborne over the US any given hour: 61,000.

Intelligent people have more zinc and copper in their hair.

The world's youngest parents were 8 and 9 and lived in China in 1910.

The youngest pope was 11 years old.

First novel ever written on a typewriter: Tom Sawyer.

The San Francisco Cable cars are the only mobile National Monuments.

Each king in a deck of playing cards represents a great king from history:

Spades - King David
Clubs - Alexander the Great,
Hearts-Charlemagne, and
Diamonds - Julius Caesar.

111,111,111 x 111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987,654,321

If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle; if the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died as a result of wounds received in battle; if the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural causes.

Only two people signed the Declaration of Independence on July 4th, John Hancock and Charles Thomson. Most of the rest signed on August 2, but the last signature wasn't added until 5 years later.

"I am." is the shortest complete sentence in the English language.

The term "the whole 9 yards" came from W.W.II fighter pilots in the South Pacific. When arming their airplanes on the ground, the .50 caliber machine gun ammo belts measured exactly 27 feet, before being loaded into the fuselage. If the pilots fired all their ammo at a target, it got "the whole 9 yards."

Hershey's Kisses are called that because the machine that makes them looks like it's kissing the conveyor belt.

The phrase "rule of thumb" is derived from an old English law which stated that you couldn't beat your wife with anything wider than your thumb.

The Eisenhower interstate system requires that one mile in every five must be straight. These straight sections are usable as airstrips in times of war or other emergencies.

The name Jeep came from the abbreviation used in the army for the "General Purpose" vehicle, G.P.

The cruise liner, Queen Elizabeth II, moves only six inches for each gallon of diesel that it burns.

The only two days of the year in which there are no professional sports games (MLB, NBA, NHL, or NFL) are the day before and the day after the Major League all-stars Game.

THE Proposal

Many a times, in a woman's life, there will be moments when you wonder about how life would be like through your 20' right up till 30s. Will you be married, start a family, have kids, grow old with your partner, your soul mate as many would call it.

And many a times, you wonder, if making a decision is the right one you would make, and you realise, all your life, the "what if's" syndrome will haunt you in every possible way, especially when things go wrong.

Marriage proposal was not necessary for me, i always figured, you know you're going to get married, and long distance relationship is as to the extreme as it is.

I remember this saying, watching "Taken", ok, yes,I am a movie, drama, books freak at times but... i love it! So, anyway, Dakota Fanning was saying this:

Sometimes the best way to move into the unknown is to take familiar steps, small steps. To do ordinary things to deal with something that is in no way ordinary. We're always going someplace new, all the time. Familiar things just let us pretend that we aren't moving into unfamiliar territory. You take those small familiar steps, and you try to be honest, not to live as if nothing had changed but still to go on with your life. But there are times when what you need is a piece of how things used to be.

So, folks, 21st Jan, at 8.00pm (SIN time), 7.00am (CAN time) and 12.00pm (Denmark time), Lars said, "Idah, will you marry me?" and that changed everything!

It felt real than it was months ago, a man and not just any man, the man you know you want to spend the rest of your life with, proposed to me! not the neighbour next door, not the friend i know, not anyone else, but me! :)

On behalf of all the Mondays that i drag for so many years, this is one Monday i will not forget! I am actually smiling and dont need 10 mugs of coffee to keep my sanity level to normal rate. Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are good is like expecting the bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian.

The real trouble with reality is that there's no background music.

2007

I have no idea what is wrong with me, either aging is in the process or my brain has decided to take a break from the world, you know, i think it's the other way round, it's overworking, mush and gerard use to tell me, whatever number of thoughts an average person thinks, i have double.

"In this sad World of ours, sorrow comes to us all; and to the young, it comes with bitterest agony, because it takes them unawares."

"Every effect must have its cause. The past is the cause of the present, and the present will be the cause of the future. All these are links in the endless chain stretching from the finite to the infinite."

That was said by Abraham Lincoln.

As i reflect on 2006, conjuring up enough memory cell left, the good things that came to into my life, the things i wish i had done or said, the people i wish i could shoot (well, not that many, really).

I have met a man i want to spend the rest of my life with, start a family, something i never thought would happen in a million years, well not to me, maybe to everyone else, well, now that it's here, it's happening to me, i want to embrace it whole-heartedly, look back and see this young lady that drinks, smoke and dance in her own world looking on to this grown woman and know it's ok.

Last few years has allowed me to grow and taught me many things about life and people, family, work. I don't want to relive most of it... a lot of it was hard work and it's certainly work I don't want to have to do again. Yet I don't regret it... well most of it anyway.

I have drifted away from friends, and I have gained some friends. Friends have moved away from me, and some have moved back to me. The friends I cherish most are still a firm part of my everyday life - and that means more to me than I could explain.

I have become a better person... I have hurt some people and been hurt in order to become this - but I think they too would say it was well worth it.

I have learnt to live, to cherish the moment, to take life as it comes, to be happy, to smile when I don't feel like it, to open myself up and most importantly to love.

I know this year will be better than the last, watching my life pass me by, i don't want to waste my day... *i feel a song here...* Now that the year has come, time is ushering me off, pushing me from my back, saying it's time to move forward, it's now or never missy. Saying goodbye has never been a friend of mine. I feel equipped to tackle whatever is thrown my way...

Blimey, Thousand Apologies!

You Belong in the UK

Blimey! A little proper, a little saucy. You're so witty and charming... No one notices your curry breath

What English Speaking Country Are You?

My Trip

I am back home, well, it's Monday, and i am at work, needing coffee more than ever, with bloodshot eyes, i need sleep badly.

Reached Singapore late evening on Friday, and went to my sister's place which was 10 minutes away from the airport, greeted by Gerard and Genie at the airport, it was really nice to see them.

Unfortunately, i could not sleep at all, it was not my bed, and sleep came at 1am and sun came at 4am, as my mind was nagging whether Lars has reached Montreal safely. Saturday night, same thing, wondering whether he has reached Quebec safely.

Last evening, i came back to Toa Payoh, the smell of dog crap, courtesy of our friendly neighbours could not have made me happier.. I AM HOME!

Sasi was home, and it's nice, my bed, my cat, my pillows... all mine and still freaking sleep would not come cos Sasi decided to nag the whole night!!!

So, here i am typing on my blog, doing some personality blogging thing from Mush the moron blog, and feeling sleeepy yet again.

My stories about Denmark coming up with pictures to see.. My next countdown trip, Quebec in March.

Yawn!

Blogging Personality..Hmmmm

Your Blogging Type Is the Private Performer

Your blog is your stage - with your visitors your adoring fans. At least, that's how you write with your witty one liners. And while you like attention, you value your privacy. You're likely to have an anonymous blog - or turn off comments.

What's Your Blogging Personality?